Verbal virus

it is one minute after midnight hour and today the world, as I knew, the delusional image in my head, is about to go blast. can you hear the lava rising? no, I'm sorry its just my teeth clacking with anxiety. my whole body shaking and real vomit of nothingness of empty heart and stomach. lungs full of poison. liver craving numbness. mind - self destroying. the eruption of emotions wasn't detected by anyone. the attention whore in me awaited concerned : is all okay? it never came. tick tock. ticking clock. the verdict has been passed. you aren't the right fit. you are secondary. you have no admirable qualities. you are not worth respect. you are not one to make plans with. you are waste of time. you should have never been born. you are unloved and your life is a waste.